The Start

Introduction

This blog was created to keep me accountable to myself. As Paul has said in Romans 7:15

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do."

What I want to do is to live a life that praises God daily through my words and actions and thoughts. However, what I have found myself deliberately shying away from reading the word of God or reflecting on my decisions and choices and seeing if they align with what I believe is the gospel's truth. So I hope that in creating this blog, no matter if it's just posting a verse or reflecting on my own thoughts in a hopefully Biblical manner, I can do what my soul longs for.

I am not going to over-think this blog as I normally do. So many times I omit things, fade away from blogs and other social communications because I don't like putting myself out there. But this will be different because it is for God and not man. What's here might not be good or right, but it'll be true and honest - and hopefully the good and right part will come with God's wisdom. It is what it is. Also, don't always expect coherency. Ha.

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Verse Reflection
 Romans 7:

For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; ²³ but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. ²⁴ What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? ²⁵ Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! 

It is true, the answer to verse fifteen. How this speaks to me! To know that only Jesus Christ can break the chains of the law of sin in myself - so long I've found myself apathetic to even cracking open the Bible or trusting in God's strength over mine... ah surely there is no one who can read verse 24 and not agree with him: What a wretched person I am! The depths of my depravity and the amount of time I reject over and over by my actions by not turning to him first is so crushing to my soul when I truly reflect on it. Enough to bury me with guilt and turn me away to not deal with the sins at hand. But thanks be to God. Thanks be to God for deliverance. 

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Personal Corner  

Today I met a high school friend who I haven't seen for 3 years. I knew she became a Christian during the years we didn't speak, but she was doubting and questioning motivations for becoming a Christian. I've seen that in myself, in other believers, non-believers and seekers alike. Doubt is like Doubting Thomas - God sees it, but he'll say: “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.”
And our faith should be all the more strengthened from that.