Lapse

So it didn't happen as I wanted. So much for the daily devotion I was hoping for. But I'm back again.

I had a pretty miserable dream yesterday. And I realized my worst dreams aren't the ones where I die or am scared to death, or whatever the cliche for nightmares are - rather, my worst dreams are the ones in which I fail.

I think that says a lot for who I am, I guess.

It probably also handicaps me too just because I'm so afraid of failure that I hesitate to even begin trying at tasks that are important to me.

So today's verse of the day on my phone was from Psalm 50:14-15

"Sacrifice thank offerings to God, fulfill your vows to the Most High, and call on me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you will honor me."


Well isn't that quite a blow to my thought process. I've been depending on myself too much, thinking I can do it all as long as I try (though even starting to try is difficult sometimes).

But here, God's promise is so clear and sweet... maybe I won't succeed at what I do, but he will  deliver me - and in this, hopefully I can honor Him.